Herencia

El domingo platicaba con 2 personitas muy especiales para mí y les dije “¿qué pensarían si les digo que me voy a suicidar?”

Entre burlas y regaños me dijeron que me extrañarían. Bien, no sé qué decir… esta canción expresa lo que siento.

En tan poco tiempo se han convertido tan importantes para mi pues siempre han sido sinceros, directos, amorosos, no me han juzgado a pesar de lo que soy. Por eso se las dedico… disfrútenla porque es muy difícil que yo dedique una canción a alguien *;P

I dreamed I was missing

You were so scared

But no one would listen

Cause no one else cared

After my dreaming

I woke with this fear

What am I leaving

When I’m done here?

So, if you’re asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes

Forget the wrong that I’ve done

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me

And when you’re feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest

Don’t be afraid

I’ve taken my beating

I’ve shared what I’ve made

I’m strong on the surface

Not all the way through

I’ve never been perfect

But neither have you

So, if you’re asking me, I want you to know

When my time comes

Forget the wrong that I’ve done

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me

And when you’re feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest

Forgetting

All the hurt inside you’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending

Someone else can come and save me from myself

I can’t be who you are

When my time comes

Forget the wrong that I’ve done

Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed

And don’t resent me

And when you’re feeling empty

Keep me in your memory

Leave out all the rest

Leave out all the rest

Forgetting

All the hurt inside you’ve learned to hide so well

Pretending

Someone else can come and save me from myself

I can’t be who you are

I can’t be who you are

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Never enough

Even though I’m still confused, I’m feeling like this… because it will never be enough, I will never be enough…

So I will starve to death, that is when I will know it was enough.

Can’t you hear me screaming, once again?

Voices you can’t hear

Because you are consumed and incontent

With everlasting greed

Don’t you see me on my hands and knees?

Begging and bleeding

You’re smiling as you bite the hand that feeds

But will you never see?

Always wanting what your eyes can’t see

needing what your arms can’t reach

Thinking you are in need

Always hearing what your ears can’t hear

feeling what your hands can’t touch

Thinking you’re incomplete

It was,

Never enough that I gave to you

All of the horror that you’ve put me through

How can I make up my mind this time?

This is where I will draw the line

Sacrificed my life to be with you

Why did you leave me?

There’s nothing more from me you can consume

Cause you are incomplete

Always wanting what your eyes can’t see

needing what your arms can’t reach

Thinking you are in need

Always hearing what your ears can’t hear

feeling what your hands can’t touch

Thinking you’re incomplete

It was,

Never enough that I gave to you

All of the horror that you’ve put me through

How can I make up my mind this time?

This is where I will draw the line

Everlasting need

Would you please?

Answer me and

Make me complete

Everlasting greed

Would you please?

Set me free

Fulfill all my needs and make complete

It was,

Never enough that I gave to you

All of the horror that you’ve put me through

How can I make up my mind this time?

This is where I will draw the line

Never again will I be with you

No promise eternal carrying us through

I finally made up my mind this time

This is the end, I’ve drawn the line

Never enough to devour your greed

Why did you do it?

And I don’t know what to say

I’m thinking about you

It’s hurting without you

I never learn from my mistakes

I feel fucked up today

My demons cursing me as I’m awake

My head is spinning I can’t explain

Your words are poison inside my veins

You lied!

I don’t believe you I can’t relate

You lied!

I hate your voice cause it sounds so fake

(You lied…)

And I don’t know what to say

I’m thinking about you

It’s hurting without you

I never learn from my mistakes

I’m thinking about you

I’m choking without you

And I don’t know what to say

I should’ve walked away

And break the circle that never ends

No other way to survive the pain

It’s either I kill or I will be killed

You lied!

But I’m still giving myself away

You lied!

I don’t regret every single day

(You lied…)

And I don’t know what to say

I’m thinking about you

It’s hurting without you

I never learn from my mistakes

I’m thinking about you

I’m choking without you

And I don’t know what to say

I think of you and I can’t forget

Every word you said hurts inside my head

Cannot let you go, things will never change

I feel fucked up today

It’s either I kill or I will be killed

(You lied)

And I don’t know what to say

I’m thinking about you

It’s hurting without you

I never learn from my mistakes

I’m thinking about you

I’m choking without you

And I know right now

Just the way that I will be killed

You lied!

I think I’m going to break one of my bones… I really fucking need it…

The boy I love’s got another girl

He might be fucking her right now

I don’t have an apartment

Thought if I was smart I’d make it far

But I’m still at the start

Guess I’m contagious it’d be safest if you ran

Fuck that’s what they all just end up doing in the end

Take my car and paint it black

Take my arm, break it in half

Say something, do it soon

It’s too quiet in this room

I need noise

I need the buzz of a sub

Need the crack of a whip

Need some blood in the cut

I need noise

I need the buzz of a sub

Need the crack of a whip

Need some blood in the cut

I need blood in the cut

I need blood in the cut

Met back up with the boy I love

Cried on the streets of San Francisco

I don’t have an agenda

All I do is pretend to be ok so my friends

Can’t see my heart in the blender

Lately, I’ve been killing all my time

Reading through your messages my favorite way to die

Take my head and kick it in

Break some bread for all my sins

Say a word, do it soon

It’s too quiet in this room

I need noise

I need the buzz of a sub

Need the crack of a whip

Need some blood in the cut

I need noise

I need the buzz of a sub

Need the crack of a whip

Need some blood in the cut

I need blood in the cut

I need blood in the cut

Suicide is never going to save you… really?

Hey me

Remember when you were skinny

Remember when you didn’t worry

Remember when you didn’t care

That’s when you were living

You were living, you were alive

And I don’t know what’s happened to me

No, I don’t know what’s happened to me

I guess the devil’s back

I guess the devil’s back

I guess the devil’s back

I guess the devil’s back

Hate me

I hate what I’ve become and now I cannot breathe

Anxiety is killing me slowly

What happened to youthful carefree

When did I get so old

And I don’t know what’s happened to me

No, I don’t know what’s happened to me

I guess the devil’s back

I guess the devil’s back

Against the devil’s back

Against the devil’s back